Friendship is like a prism through which the many variations of beauty are revealed in our lives. (Anonymous)
When I started this blog, I did it because I know that I’m very blessed to have many great people in my life, and I wanted the ability to share publicly just how wonderful they really are. My job has brought me face-to-face with dozens, if not hundreds, of individuals who aren’t only talented entertainers, but also good people.
The best among them is Adam Levine.
I visited the set of NBC’s The Voice on Thursday to observe the taping of battle rounds. Every time I go to set, I always look forward to seeing Adam, because he’s just such a joy to be around. Yesterday did not disappoint: while I was sitting next to the house band, Adam walked over to speak to bandleader Paul Mirkovich, and when he turned he recognized me. He pulled me into a hug, and for the next few minutes, stood there and chatted with me. (I immediately turned pink when he called me ‘sweetheart.’) After he went back to work, I couldn’t help but reflect on how lucky I am. I truly adore Adam for a number of reasons, but the fact that he’s stayed in my life going on two years after we first met is one of the biggest ones.
The fact that I have a friendship with him is probably one of the things I’m most proud of in my life. We don’t see each other often, and you probably won’t spot us getting coffee together (though I would if he wanted to!), but he’s been a friend in all the ways that count. When I was going through my recovery after surgery, Adam was the first person that I was able to confide in. He let me literally cry on his shoulder. To this day, whenever we talk, he asks how I’m doing. If he notices me in the studio or on the red carpet, he’ll always at least say hello. He recognized me in the crowd at Maroon 5’s Staples Center concert last month, and when I asked him today how he’d managed that in a packed arena, he said, “Of course I saw you. I always see you.”
That’s a stand-up friend in any circumstance, but then you have to add in the fact that he’s also the person I look up to more than anyone else in this world. It’s never stopped being stunning that my hero not only knows I exist, but remembers me and has a respect for me. That knowledge is an incredible honor and it’s also very validating. There are a lot of things in my world that are wrong, but to matter to Adam Levine, I’ve done something right.
But even if he wasn’t one of the biggest names in music (as Carson Daly likes to say and rightfully so), I would still admire Adam just as much, because we just click together as people. He brings out the best in me. The time I’ve spent with him has helped me become the person I didn’t even know I wanted to be, but am really glad I am today. His belief in me gave me confidence in myself. He made me unafraid to be me.
And when I’m standing next to him, like I was on Thursday, I just feel better about everything. Adam won’t take any credit for any of this, but I keep writing about him, hoping that I can help people to realize that underneath his good looks and even past his musical talent is the best person I know.
He inspired me to make a decision Thursday. Adam gave me a dream that I’ve held onto quietly for the past two years. I haven’t told very many people about it, because I’m afraid that I won’t be good enough to achieve it. I certainly haven’t told him about it, because I don’t know what he’ll think about it. But I’ve decided that it’s time for me to come out with it. Because saying it here and now means someone else might understand it, and maybe if I write these words I’ll find the courage to tell him, too.
I want to sing with Adam Levine.
Not professionally, of course. I don’t have the vocal chops for that. But I want to share a harmony with the person whose music got me through the toughest time in my life. I want to collaborate with the man who helped me find my voice in the first place. I want to have that experience with him.
I’m not sure it will ever happen. I’m not even sure if I’ll ever have the guts to tell him that it’s something I aspire to. But it’s days like Thursday that remind me I’m a lucky woman to even have that dream in the first place. When I can stand in the same room with the person who’s made me better, and look him in the eye as an equal, that is something I will never stop being grateful for.
I’ve been able to flourish because Adam didn’t forget me. And now I just think of all the things I’ve accomplished since…and all the things that are still to come. Hopefully including many more moments like Thursday.